It’s all coming together

I started this blog when I was 13 in 2011. Since then, I’ve struggled to keep up with this and school and finding my path. I’ve changed names twice and contemplated how I could easily transfer to a self-hosted site.

And now, I’m 18, in my first year of college and I’m in an entirely new place. I mostly know what I want to do with this blog, I know the name I want to be under and my Dad was able to help me find a virtual server so I’ll have no space problems.

What I’m ultimately saying is – I’m going to be moving sites soon. And I will be taking subscribers with me. I’m not entirely sure how everything will work yet, but I’m working out the bugs, starting a new chapter of my life and plan to blog regularly. I’ve been trying to work this out since November of last year but I think it’s finally time.

The reason I’m going through with this is the fact that I miss blogging on here, I want to have somewhere to keep an online portfolio that’s connected to all of my work and, as I said, I miss blogging. So much has changed since I started college and I feel myself changing as time goes on. I also have new things I want to bring in and do but those are all to be determined and ironed out.

This is all going to be a process. I want to be able to keep this with everything I’m doing. I’ve decided on a major in Art with a 2D concentration, for printmaking mainly, a minor in Journalism and an Eastern Asian Studies certificate. I want something to follow my life again and dedicate more time to this again.

Live Albums: the Endangered Species

More than anything within the music realm, I love live music and beyond that I love good live music. To feed this love, I usually turn to live albums because they’re much cheaper than buying concert tickets all the time and way easier to listen to than your average concert video (you know, with all the screaming fans and crowd singers belting in the background?).

The incredibly unfortunate thing is, barely anyone produces live albums anymore.

Around the time that I first considered this blog post someone I was a fan of put out a live album. Unfortunately in the time that it has taken me to write this post, I have forgotten who it was. However, while browsing through Spotify, I noticed that the only live albums that are ever put out anymore are from Spotify Sessions which is no where near satisfactory.

Live versions of songs are so sick. Like when you can’t manage to go to your favorite band’s tour, being able to experience it through your headphones isn’t the same, but it’s still about 68% as cool as actually being there. One of my most listened to albums is Panic! at the Disco’s Live in Chicago. It was released in 2008, before the first split, and I’m truly so thankful for it’s existence. In 2008, I never would have been able to step foot in one of their concerts because 1) I was 11 and could only go to concerts with an adult, and 2) I was a year away from actually becoming a fan.  The way they edited the album, with the stage commentaries included, makes the album for me. Also Panic! has always been phenomenal live so having this is little encasement of that in high quality is so nice.


Sorry for shouting and I know, I’m being one of those people who get excited over Christmas far earlier than the average person. But for whatever reason I’m excited for everything this year so far. 17 is such an insignificant birthday compared to 16 (legal to drive) and 18 (legal adult but still can’t drink).

I honestly have no idea why but Christmas sounds great this year. Maybe it’s the possibility that this could possibly be my last christmas at home for a while depending on my college choices. Maybe it’s the off and on confidence I have about being single all year round and especially during the holidays because, you know, it’s cold, I like gifts and my mom has cut off my hot chocolate intake cold turkey.

Or it could be that I’m just happier. I’m out of a huge rut and I guess I just want to celebrate it and scream it to the world that I’m ok. Everything feels like it’s the end of the world when I have college applications and one half of our school newspaper resting on my shoulders, but it’s… not. I’m a senior and I have so much ahead of me I just have to find the right path for me. And finally I feel like I’m on my way there.

Anyone can get there, really. All it takes is a bit of positive goal thinking and then how to get there. Without the planning, the goals are only dreams and may never manifest themselves. They each deserve their own time to sculpt and develop.

Throwback Thursday – Here It Goes Again by OK GO

I wish I was a teenager in 2006. In 2006, OK GO and Panic! at the Disco both performed at the VMAs and they were both so good (thank you, YouTube).

But anyway, OK GO have done some amazing videos (the This Too Shall Pass Rube Goldberg machine version among others) so I felt we all needed a quick reminder to the famous treadmill that they also recreated at the 2006 VMAs.

So for Throwback Thursday, here’s one of my absolute videos, Here It Goes Again by OK GO.

Rose Petal Rebel

Christmas Icon 2

Well, it’s official – I am no longer The Fashion Outcast. I had that domain name for nearly two and a half full years and it was apart of me as everything I did in junior high still is (unfortunately).

I actually remember the moment when I first thought of that name. I was staring at my computer, much like I am now, but back then I had no direction or real reason for wanting to start a fashion blog except for that I wanted to be one of those bloggers that get invited to the big kids parties. But the problem was, I had no idea what to post or what to do with a fashion blog. A fashion blog all to myself seemed so… daunting. And scary. I was a thirteen-year-old girl who was doing something without her mom helping her for once. I didn’t know how much I should share about my life, I didn’t think anyone would care really. I also thought, “No one’s going to take me seriously because I’m thirteen.” And it’s taken me two and a half years to just say, “Screw it, I’m gonna do what I want whether people take me seriously or not.”

Also in the past few years it seems like I’ve went from no post ideas to lots of post ideas and no time to all the time in the world and I’m semi-starting over. I’m going to revamp this blog. It will go somewhere. That is my New Year’s Resolution.

I guess you could say that I’ve grown up a bit from the girl I was in junior high to the girl who’s been in high school for two and a half years. I know I have much more to learn, but I’m extremely proud of the progress I’ve made and the fact that my prediction came true. Last year on Jan 2, I said that 2013 was going to be my year. And it was sure one helluva year. 2013 is one year that I will never forget and in the days leading up to 2014, I’m going to look back on all that I have and haven’t done and it’s time to make my own “2013 in Review”.

One Direction – Best Song Ever

Whether you want to admit it or not, we all know at least one One Direction song, every single word of the chorus and the name of at least one member of the boy band. How can you not? In a world that has practically been taken over by Justin Bieber and these 5 British boys, it’s hard to avoid them any longer. And I’ll admit, I’ve been following One Direction’s career ever since I first a video of them on the X-factor on Youtube. I thought, and still think, they are wickedly talented vocally.

And sweet baby Jesus are they attractive!

There’s only one problem I see with them: their music really isn’t that good. And this song is no exception.

It’s a cute video idea, with Zayn as the sexy Secretary and Harry as the Marketing Assistant. These boys are smart and know how to make a funny video that people will watch. I’ll also give them all props on their accents because they all managed to do them quite well (though Liam didn’t have any special accent).

The dance at the end was cute, sure, but was it really necessary? It looked like a perfectly planned out flash mob and it almost bothered me how perfect it looked (they were all in their little rows, on their little desks and everything was happy and fun).

Overall, I’m personally in a strange spot with my feelings for 1D. I think they’re attractive, funny, humble lads with stunning voices, but produce crappy music. Their music’s catchy, I’ll give them that.

Um, this is a little awk.

As we all know, the new 2012-13 school year has started. And every teen fashion blogger probably did a first day of school outfit post… except for me. You see, I have had an exhausting first week (trying to make friends etc.) and my Physics teacher is a jerkface. So I had no first day outfit or any anecdote about my day.

Second, the VMAs came and went and as much as I had wanted to do a fashion post, I couldn’t even get myself to sit down and watch them let alone write about it. Personally, I have noticed that music has taken a turn for the worst, which completely and utterly sucks since I love going through different music genres and giving each a try, but everything just sucks right now.

And then I decided, “Hey, lets be an overachiever and take on four news stories for the newspaper while I’m in a show with a bunch of practice and I want to keep up a blog. No big deal. Not hard at all.” But what I soon discovered is, it’s super hard! All my energy has been focused on these stories. In conclusion, my inspiration went out the window.

So yep, that’s about it. Here, enjoy a funny (and slightly inappropriate) picture of my favourite male model, Ash Stymest.

Oh My Jonas!

It was 2006 when I first heard about the Jonas Brothers in one of my teen magazines (I believe the one I was reading was wither Tiger Beat or Pop!). They were offering up a date with them and at the age of nine I thought, I want a date with the curly hair one. I found out practically everything there was to know about them within a few months, listened to their music often and talked about how hot they were with my friends. So back then I was your average fangirl. But that all ended in sixth grade when I moved on and my music taste matured though I continued through my Jonas journey by watching their television show, Jonas, but I stopped with one season.

As we all know, Kevin, the eldest Jonas, got married a few years ago and now he and his wife Danielle have a show coming to E!. So since I’m a fashion blog, I decided why not do a little post of their fashion through the years in honour of the new chapter in all of their lives with all three boys embarking on separate projects.


Remember when they were this adorable? Joe and his eyebrows had just made their debut in 2005 along with Nick‘s gorgeous head of curls. And Kevin… I feel like he used to wear the bandannas often, but it was so long ago that I cannot remember.


It seems that 2006 has been lost. Seriously guys, I can’t tell the different between 2005 them and 2006 them.


Let us take a moment to appreciate Joe’s hippie headband. This is my favourite year of outfits for him. His hair looked quite good, his outfits weren’t too young, and he seemed to be maturing little by little.


I’m pretty sure this was late 2007, but I’m pretty positive it was 2008. But from this photo we can tell that Nick is going in a more black tie, yet quirky and young pathway while Joe is clashing a bit and his hair is… unkept. Kevin looks nice and the perfect amount of casual and put together.


The year the boys finally grew up. Personally this is my least favourite hairstyle right behind 2011.



(Ugh, why those shoes Joe?)


Hello Joe’s vankle.

Disclaimer: None of the photos above are mine.

The Summer Blues?

It seems to me that I have found people I much lazier and slightly more uninspired in the winter months as opposed to the summer months. But strangely, enough I feel the exact opposite. June through August is the hottest time of the in Michigan with sun beating down a majority of the time. And the thing about sun is that it makes me tired and makes me feel like I should go curl in bed with a good book for a few months (which I actually do on many days). It takes so much to get me out of the house and I have to really like the person to legitimally consider it.

This summer I had a job at a community theatre in Trenton where I worked with kids 5-14 for about six hours three days a week. If kids don’t put you in a sleepy rut after just a half an hour with them, I praise you and dear God do you deserve a large batch of cookies with gold stars iced onto them (if I could bake, I would make them for you). Plus, let’s face it: summer is not a time for sleeping. It should be renamed “The Three Months of Sleep Deprivation”. No matter how tired I am, I don’t like sleeping, I hardly do it, and then I wake up early.

Obviously I need help functioning in the summer. Which is why I created this list of How To Survive the (possibly non-existent) Summer Blues.

1. Go for a bike ride

Since you’re reading my blog you must like me in some way and I guess we could call us friends, right? Do you want to be friends? Well, I hope you do. As friends, I’m going to tell you something I never thought I would admit. Okay, here it goes: I look absolutely terrible while riding a bike. My fringe does not make the wind blowing through my hair look half like as sexy as a super model when they do it. And I get sweaty and gross… Ugh, it is not a good sight at all. But bike rides are so invigorating.

Now I’ll be honest: my Dad and I don’t really know how to bond now that I am getting older. I’ve moved on to what I like (writing, theatre, fashion) and my Dad has his computers. So many nights when I eat late, we watch cartoons together and when we feel up to it, we go for 7 mile bike rides to the park in the morning.

Even though I’ve been close to doing it, it’s near impossible to fall asleep on a bike. Just don’t go to far, around your block will do just fine to wake you up just enough.

2. Take a coffee break

Coffee is one of my guilty pleasures. especially Starbucks. I personally love Frappes in the summer and the buzz that it gives me so I can stay up all hours of the night if I wanted. I sometimes like to think of it as a small saviour: when I drink coffee, I eat less and have no desire for dessert because it’s sweet enough to be dessert! Plus you have to get out of that computer chair to get and it makes the perfect accessory for every blogger.

3. Pick up your favourite book

We all have that one book that we just can’t get enough of and no matter how many times we read it, it will never get old. For me that book is The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. It opened up my mind and put my life in perspective. It was also a major tear jerker and I sobbed for hours afterwards (I was up until three am or so). But the best part of the favourite book experience is having a little buddy to read with you!

4. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. Just keep swimming all day long.

As much as I hate water since it makes my hair curl up so I look like a poodle, having water running over your body can be both a relaxing experience and an awakening at the same exact time. If you don’t have a pool nearby, be like me and take a shower.

5. Bake something!

Baking is such a fun process especially if you get to lick the spoon afterwards! Bake come cookies, cupcakes, or if you’re feeling daring, a seven layer wedding cake. I’m a perfectionist and I’m OCD, so when I do anything I want it to be perfectly in place. If you’re like me, you’re sure to be awake after piping a cake, I promise.

This is just a few things you can do to wake yourselves up in these months. If you have anything in particular that you do that helps you out of a rut, comment below!

Disclaimer: None of the images above are mine. They all came from weheartit